Yup, never good enough... Never was, never is...

Something that my life revovles around... Was never good enough in my studies, had to always appeal into the school I wanted to go into... Never reached the mark of any benchmark... Sports, music or even character...

Well, I guess not making the mark for being an ogl wasn't any different either... When I came out of the interview, something in my heart told me to accept it if I don't make it to become an ogl... Maybe I should have listened to it then, so I won't be so disappointed now that I've indeed failed to be one... Haha, as quoted for some barker boys, I'm really a joke...

I have great friends around me that make me feel as if I can really do and take up responsibility for certain things... Thanks guys... But sometimes I wonder if my strength really is enough... I mean of course without God, I won't be able to do all these things yet... If he didn't put all these people in my life, could I have really done all these things?

Could I? Most probably not at all...

I wonder what God really wants me to do? What is his plan for me?

I read once that when one gets too far away from his own dream, he can choose to give it up and help others realise their dream... I seem to be taking that path, and I really love it when others get to do what they what...

Cause at least, they can do what I can't...

Still, I'll put in as much effort as I can in whatever I do....

Well, though most of the time, its not really enough...

I wonder how some people really handle this...

Win some, Lose some? Ha, guess its something I really have to get used too...