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Monday, July 24, 2006

Empty ; 6:06 PM

I never really realised that I had feelings for you... Didn't know till I met you again... But its all too late....

Well, studying for 4 tests this week... So tired... And just failed my Phycis test, XD.... Well, also like the above that I feel so empty.. Hope that it will go pass and by as a crush.... Yet.... *sigh*... Nvm.... Well, spend more on other stuff and not think about that....

Well, nothing much to post about.... What's my life MADE OF!!! Nvm....

Monday, July 17, 2006

Post for boredroom.... ; 11:26 AM

Oh, its another day..... Parents seems to have limited to like 1hr per day... So, I'm using the com in school.... LoLx.... Thanks to the church for showing concern to like my grandma... She is doing fine... And VISTORS ARE ALLOWED... Correction to the pastors speech yesterday.....

Nothing in particular to talk about.... But like ermmmz..... Well, like to just say thanks to friends and Thanks to Kellyn for showing concern.... And maybe post a bit later on... Due to the fact that ITS RECESS AND I NEED TO EAT!!!

Well, see ya laterz...... X.X.... XD.... X0X

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Restored.... ; 5:56 PM

Been spending time talking to old-friends.... Trying to catch up with them... And had fun talking to them!! If any of you see this, just here to say you all are great man...

Today, what to talk about... Maybe I'll start with this...

None but Jesus...

A friend that always knew me... He always instantly replies me whenever I need him... Through all my friends... Talking to me... Understanding me.. and trying to make me a better person... Yet will my morals change in time...?... Will I became a jerk in the future?...

Two short questions that will question me for life...

Monday, July 10, 2006

Day 1 of yet another week... ; 6:25 PM

Yet another week... Next thing you know its exams *eyes rolls...* Ah well... Tests are coming constantly and so are the homework... Looks like back to sch life schedule... One obivous way to see I'm not back in it yet = Mom's unhappiness with me on com for long hrs... Oops... Well, should get back to work so that mom won't get so angry... :(

Well, Sunday was great... Was an honour to be a part of the 1st Youth Worship Team!! Wonder if we ever get a chance to team up with PPH youth.. Then can team with Jessica for worship :):).. Anyway, when we started to praise God... I really spent the time to myself... And told myself... This is what I really am made for in my life... In my service in church... Where I really give myself up and all that I am to him... So, next year planning to go into exaltation... But its Sec. 4 so maybe I'll take a rest... As the Lord leads me then....

Sunday also taught me to look ahead with my heart and not my eyes... If we do with our eyes... The mind will take lead and We will base all things on logic... Yet if we look with our heart, we will base all things with our faith... And live a life pleasing to God.... I was also asked, on the slip of paper given to me... To follow him Always... So, I will change my sight to my heart... And live with God...

Oh I even met a ex school-mate today in church... Maybe she is my start to this journey... I should ask her to come to church so that God can further touvh her.. And one day, be a person for another in doubt of coming to church.... :):)

Its been a great Sunday !! XD

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Thinking... ; 11:12 AM

Thought I'll post today... The week was ok..... Quite boring actually with the teachers going "blah blah...." With new stuff and some revision... Oh well.... So, spent some time in class day-dreaming...

I usually think of what people talk to me about... And I find out that I really act like a know-it-all when I seriously am not.... Well, Here's a little something... When i do that next, just ignore me so that I know...

For some reason, scenes of talking with kellyn just zoom past my mind... Must be influence from an young adult kind of thing...

There was this conversation I had with her that really left a really great impression...

Setting: Church Office
On a Sunday Afternoon with Edgar in preparation for Children's day performance...

Kellyn:"WoW, its really cold today...Brrrr..."

(Edgar checks remote for air-con)

"Its 36 Degrees!! No wonder we are feeling hot..."

(Nigel passes coat to kellyn)

"You have it since its you're so cold..."

"Nigel, do you have a girl friend? You really seem like boyfriend material.."
(Don't mind me, just quoting her... And I doubt she was thinking straight... Fever is always plays with people's minds...)

I told her that I would never get into a relationship due to two things... Or actually one thing... I can never get past myself... I want to wait till I really good enough for anyone.. When I can give up my all and be pure and pleasing in the eyes of the Lord... Till then, I can never totally devote myself in a relationship... And now I think of it.... I must Love God before I can truly love anyone esle for God is Love itself....

Who knows what I would be you know.... I told kellyn I really fear that my mind would lead my soul into darkness and forget all morals... Forget God and fall deep into darkness... That is why I teasure all of you... I'm changing... Being a know-it-all more and more these days that I am disgusted with myself... What am I becoming too..

Yet I have all of you... People to pick me up when I have fallen... To guide me when I took the wrong turn... And to hold my hand along this journey in life... If you all would allow me (Which I doubt so...) I would really wanna hug all of you all.... And just cry for all the times I was angry or made you angry... Really Sorry

But I rather you tell me where I went wrong than keep it to yourself... I wanna improve myself....

P.S I just wanna say... Though I doubt you'll be here to see it... Thanks Kellyn... For all you've done.. My thanks reaches out all so much... To both you and God... For he place you with me on this journey... And to you for all your guidence and talks.. Your laughs and concern... You're like a sister I never knew.... Thanks :)

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

A post in a while ; 9:16 PM

Hey guys, thanks for visiting the blog.. And well, for those tags that were crappy and all un-factual... Well, can only thats a way that my friends show their "care and concern" for me... Hope you are not disturbed by the comments.. Anyway, was too lazy to post anything for a awhile... But would summerize it all here today :).....

So, here we go! Ermmm.. . Well, CO for a start have started practice again, which means that there may be hope for our batch of people again... Responsiblities as a concert master are coming up and I thank God it didn't come on during the holidays cause if so, it would cause a clash with church events which would then = BAD.... Teaching juniors are fun, cause we end up teaching each other reminding each other of our mistakes and faults.... So quite fun

Church, well is so FUN... Singing is fun, being with my both classes is FUN,... Its Just FUN!!! Can't describe it anymore and won't describe it anymore....

School's ok... Reading comics has like became my hobby when Teachers are like going..."This is the skills you need to know for blah, 1.1 blah....BlahBALHbalh..." Quite boring too, but well, some are fun.... Its like the Ruler of the universe is sitting behind me during Chem class... And like if the teacher pisses him off, he's like "When I become the ruler of the universe... I'll buy a electirc collar with a remote control and see you zap for entertianment..." LoLZ......

Well, Got lots of work undone from the hols so better get to it....So better get to it....

The past few days I've been thinking... Could you have been the sister I never knew... I really... Really feel so, you know... Do you feel the same... I always wanted to have a sister... And you are the closest thing it GETS!!!