Monday, April 10, 2006
Awakening sermon.... ; 7:19 PM
I'm really mentally tired.... I mean every day nowadays is just study, practice music instrument, study, do church work and of course..... STUDY!! I'm just so tired of this life-style.... And My Mid Years are near...... But I think others are nearer.... But anyways.... Nowadays I'm like a Zombie you know..... I just study for the sake of studying..... Practice for the sake of practicing... And the wrost thing is doing church work for THE SAKE OF DOING IT!!! I mean thats like really bad, right...... *sigh*
But today's chapel's service really woke me up..... A sermon of burning passion... One not of luke-warm faith..... If one had the fire of passion in him, his flame would influence others.... Just like a flame in a Amazon jungle..... Burning down one tree after another..... And I lacked that in doing my work for God.... And everything lacked meaning recently that I even forgot was I was doing them for in the first place.....
I am tired.
Burned-out within me.....
So when the pastor asked the mass for come forward to allow him to pray for a renewal of the flame within me... I went....
Though in the end, when I was in front, he said he would pray for us non believers...... But I know that as long as God knows what I need, and I ask for it, he would provide..... Oh and there was a four weeks course for me to attend... Though I did not expect all these... But I know that God must have a reason for all this..... Its in his plan....
Life all seems so busy, with no meaning now... If not for today's sermon, I would not have found myself and would continue on as I was - A Living Zombie.... Though there are many things to work for and study for till the June holidays.... I know that the Lord would be with me as long as I prayed....
Well, at least I know that when I'm busy, I can just look out at the window and just remember the fun and carefree life I had in primary school and laugh, savouring the memories before hitting the books again....
Happiness is living better,
And living better
Is simply just living simpler...
