This holidays has been a rather nice one to me... With all the organising of activites for the church and stuff like that... Catching up with old friends and gaining new ones... Its been one of the best holidays EVER!! Oh and not forgetting the Captian's ball meetings we had for this holidays!! SUPER FUN!! But I hate it when it has to end so soon....

But next year will be another year of great fun (not like in going back to school and stuff...)But in the church!! The youths now have a Hide-Out!! And the youth open com. will plan on how to use it... There will be also many more activites in the year to come.... So keep in touch with your open sunday com. people to gain the lastest updates, ok?

I know I have been crappy this year... Now with a new and improved... Being too Direct!!... WOAH... And I know sometimes it sucks right? Being with me... I know sometimes I say something that harms someone else... And if you people are reading this... Well, I'm sorry about all the things I've said...

I try to be good but it always seems that I always find mistakes in myself.... Its really not easy to be good all the time you know... But what pulls me on is that there is still our God who deeply loves all of us and we should follow his commandments... So if you all find any mistakes in me, and I cause you to be angry, then either tell me or if you're pissed... Shouting at me is also fine, ok?

Well, I just pray that one day I'll be someone better...

Hey, thought I changed my blog-skin for the new year... Sundown... For me it brings back many memories I hold on too.... But if the sun doesn't set, will a new day come? That's why we all have to put our past behind us... But this picture will remind me that there will be a time in my own mind... That will be Still and let me relax and remember the times I had...

There are still many thanks to be given out... And I think I'll continue to write on today...

My thanks to the many cannot be expressed in the words that I have learnt... And if you don't see your name up.. Well, come and find me and I will tell you how you have affected me in my life...

Esther: Your teachings have always allowed me to learn something new... It has never failed in that aspect... The ways you reach out in your the lessons you give is something I wish to achieve... Questions about life, remember that we talked about it? Well, I know we all have a long way to go... But I just want you to know that you have taught and influenced in your time as a Sunday school teacher... And thanks for u just everything else...

Kellyn: You were more like a friend to me... And sometimes I wonder if you were really older than me... You never fail to surprise me in the talks we have... And even though next year, I'll be losing the chance of doing children ministry with you, but though it is so.. I hope that we still have conversations together? You are one nice to talk too... ok? And thanks for everything...

The P6 class: I have placed this in general because I will type out the names out here... Adelin... You are just like your sis... All so, "whateva" but you also have your sister's kindness and its quite fun to actually teach you... Valerie, you are always the person who laughs the most... It was "laughing gas" entered the room or something... But you always add humor in class with your "never-ending" laughter... Nicolete and Xi Yun, you two were also the quiet ones in the class... But you actually talk you kinda impress me... Xi Yun gives her point of view, and it sounds like a detailed point thought through over time... Just like her bro... Whereas Nicolette is more of, less talk more learn kinda person I feel... Chang Yen always gets the better of me... Bullies me all the time... But I know she was just doing it for fun and not really bullying... Its kinda fun to have her in the class... I haven't forgotten about you guys!! The guys, Lincoln, Darryl, Wayne and Theon always are a group... Linclon was always the super un-enthu. person... Darryl was always the Enthu. person... Wayne was neither here nor there... And Theon was the big time ENTHU person... But to have all of them in my class was the greatest fun ever (Except for the part of asking them to be quiet...)

I think I'll stop here today... But I won't forget about my two other friends I made in Achor... Titus and Aaron!! But I'll leave that till tomorrow... See ya till then!!

And its was.... Success!! With Celena catching it!! 

Later on, Sarah attempts to score, but will she pass ben with the help of Joachim?? 

And it was a successful block andre.... 

Jeanette attempt's to score... And matt. on the sit trying to instruct... Will she score? 

The Cpt's ball youth meeting!! 

You know today was like the biggest youth Cpt's ball gathering, Ever!! I mean Esther, Valerie and Selena came, including all the rest!! My... It was fun today, you know... And of course, we all had our fair share of mistakes done, whether in the game or out of the game... Or at least for me though....

But today I won't want to just talk about me, me, me... But rather the people, the world around me...

Today is the anniversary of the Tsuanmi event where many were, I believed, judged that day by their sins. I was watching the documentary on why the mosques survived, with its structure, though damaged, was still left standing... It was said that the people saw the sea, when it approached the temple, parted and so left it un-damaged... Is it really true that their gods are angry? Or really something esle?

I was actually thinking that maybe it was God that wanted to show the people that their gods only had the power to save themselves and not those who actually believed in them....

But who really knows, right?

It is also this that made me realized, though I already know the fact so it was actually emphazied, I might just be gone, or anyone of my friends, you know?

So, today I just wanted to thank each and one of you individually....

Lets start with...

Andre: You've been like a teacher to me, most of the times. Sharing your points of view, whether life, music or just plain comments, I've taken them quite seriously... Accept for the times you were sarcaristic.... But still you've been a good friend...

Matthew: You're always listening and hanging out with me. Talking about music or just talking, you always portray a certain kind of peace... That tells me, "Aiyah, what is tomorrow is tomorrow lah!!"... So, thanks for always being that person that you've always been...

Joachim: Never really did understand who you really are, but there's one thing that never changes, that you'll have always been a great friend. The talks we have always left me thinking, about who I am and about life... But I totally share the views of music... I feel that's the way it really should be...

Xi min: You're always that quiet observer that always looks out for me if I make any mistakes... Never taking sides in conversations, but giving a fair conclusion, you never fail to impress me... But one thing... Don't be afraid to speak up cause you have many great ideas but you are just that little scared... But hey no worries... You will always be a great friend to me...

Angela: You have always been the "whateva" girl since young, but when I actually got to know you, I realized that actually you're a good friend to others... So, thanks for all that you've done you know? You're also a caring girl to all your other friends and hope that you'll never change...

Annabel: Yo, lingo girl! Only really talked to you this year... You have been a fun-to-be-with person... Always had fun with all your lingo... dotting dots... LOL... but we all know that you're a nice girl... ANd I thank you for being that way...

Wen Xin: ALways thought that you are someone good to talk too... But never really had a chance too... But thanks for the times that you did... Thanks for rushing over that day for practice though you had project work, I know I was crappy and was not very nice too you but wanted you to know that... You're a nice girl and musician... Wanna join us for practice soon?

Eunice: Was quite shocked at X'mas when you wore a different attire... But still I thought it was quite ok... Like to thank you for talking to me sometimes and also for the events made for us- the youth... Even though you didn't really create them, but you try your best at managing them... Thanxs

Well, I spent like errrr..... 1/2 an hour typing this and can't think anymore so will type tomorrow....

Oh, and one more thing, without you all, I would have never become me, the person I am today...I know I'm still crappy but I will change, but need your help in it, so will you help me?

Hey there, its X'mas!! Today at church... The play super rocked!! The solos... the actors and female actors (sorry, forgot how to spell the term for that...)...Now I'll start thanking people...

Darius, thanks for the chocolate, really appreciated it... Esther, it was really nice of you get me socks... It was super cool... Angela, thanks for the card... Annabel, yours unique Christmas present, never recived such present before... Andre is biggest chocolate present recived... Wen Xin, thanxs for the chocolates and sweets... Kellyn, thanks for the biscuts!!

But today, I learnt from Eunice and Joachim that in any way, its really the thought that counts in Christmas gifts... Eunice spent time to make book marks for people, as in handmade bookmarks... And Joachim, who really wrote a really nice card for his friends... Mine was quite nice...

But THANXS ALL FOR THE GIFTS

Its people like all of you that make up my life!!

Maybe after Cpt's ball tommorrow, I update my blog by putting what I think about you all.....

My family... 

My best friends... 

Jeanette and Matt.... Don't they look happy on X'mas? 

kellyn and Andre doing children ministry 

Cpt's ball yesterday... Had real fun... But there where comments, which made me think about myself...

Today, I needed to get out of the house... To really find myself... I dunno why I needed to go out... But I felt I might get inspiration to seek my answer... So, when my parents went out at 5pm, I ate dinner and left... And when I did... What I saw out side was life... Everywhere, the trees, the people... And I saw love in the air, the friendships among the people I passed... Just hanging out at hawker centers... Love really makes the world go round isn't it? I found out that I loved being in huge crowds even if I was alone when I first went out... But when I went back home... I decided to take a quieter road rather than the usual crowded road back home... And I also found out that I didn't mind being alone... Spending sometime thinking and day-dreaming...

By now you must be thinking... SO do you like to be in crowds or by your self?... Actually, I think I'm both of them...

Jeanette, juat like to say here that you're right... I talk too much... This also once agian shows what a crappy person I am... But after my walk today, I'll try to be less of a chatter-box...

Kellyn, if you're reading this too, let me change my answer to the question you were asking me when we were buying drinks...

Its not that I don't like anyone... Its just I'm really a jerk...

No one is like visiting the blog.... *crys*... Its such a dead blog...

Anyway, for those who actually visit the blog and don't tag... Thanxs anyway for coming...

The trip was great, with the food and the snowboarding... But other than that it was rather boring... But it may me have alot time on my own to think about stuff I usually avoid... Stuff I don't wish to recall... Stuff I usually... Feel pain in the heart about... Thought about alot of things in the past... All the happy and sad times...

It made me think about my love... for music and my first love... and I could never understand before why she was so special or why I like her till now you know.... 7 years already....

Who really knows...? So I thought about all these in the trip... I found a few answers but the rest still... I decided to throw it aside and say... "Lets leave the past as it is..."

Well, most likey nobody would understand this post... But to conclude this whole post...

All love has to end... It brings about painful and heart breaking moments... But all for what... All to bring about incredible moments with that person you've been with... Forever....

But to that person, if she actually ever sees this post...

As long as you're happy, I'd be too... And don't forget... I'll be waiting round the corner... just for you... Just an invisible person trying to be by you...

Hey there guys... I`m using like the Japanese key board　so have totally no　idea on how to use it....　But will try...

Japan`s been great... Great food... Omlette Rice with melting Chesee, Raw fish and sushi, Ramen, Its been yummy!!! Oh and now I am in like Hokiado,living in Club Meb Sappohro which is located on the top of a mountain... WOAH... Learning how to ski, moving on to intemediate tommorrow and then the day after is... SNOW-BOARDING!!!

Well, I will stop here for now as my Com has a timer and I don`t have much time left.... So, see you all on the 22th!!

Nigel

Hello once again... Yesterday was like a super fun day out with Matt. and Jo...

We agreed to meet at 12pm at the Mac. at Isetan 1st floor... Matt. reached there on time, then came me, I reached there 10 mins late... Then Jo came half an hour late... We all thought he left home late but actually, he didn't know we the mac in Isetan was and only went to find us at the outside... JOKER LAH... Was we all went to have lunch at Mac and then proceeded to watch the all wanted movie, which was also strongly in-demand by both Matt. and Me- Chicken Little~!!! Jo was like, "Its gonna be such a lame show.... Then we are going to be surrounded by kids...." Which was, as it turns out, true... In the fact that when we entered the cinema, kids started flooding the cinema... And yes, the show was quite lame... But, I admit, I still laughed most of the time.... It was a, to me, a lame but still nice show...

It talks about a little chicken, getting laughed at by one big mistake for a long time, but to make it wrost, what he being laughed at as what is thought as a mistake, is actually.... not a mistake... but he is actually telling the truth... but no one believes him, not even his dad...

So he tries to do something big, to cover his "mistake" his done... And when he actually does that something to cover his "mistake"... It came back again... And the cycle repeats itself....

When all these is happening, his friends were always there for him, wheather its bad or good, they stick together... His friends were the fish, the pig and the ugly duckling.... I was so like the pig... The pig is very drama and always is soft-spoken, afraid of things and clam downs by singing songs but at the end of the movie.. when he was so scared, chicken little said, " You can survive".. Then after that, the pig was reminded about the song, "I will survive" and went full force back at his fears... Cool, man...

Ok, now back to the story... Now, when everybody thinking it was another mistake by chicken little, which was his theory of a falling sky and a alien invasion, it proved to be true... And he had a talk with his dad and said all his unhappiness to him in a midst of the chaos... And finally his dad trusted him and begin to believe him once more... And together.. They sort of saved the world...

So that about ends the story.... Oh oh!!! There was also a romance in the story that invloves Chicken Little and the ugly duckling, Abigail... Which tells us that even though some people's appearnces can be ugly, or in real life, not up to our standards, but still its whats inside that counts not really the outside...

After the Movie, we went to broders to the all so favourite music section where we found books about how to perfoem the various commmon instruments you see in a band.. All except Bass and Drums... Sadz...

Anyway, after that Jo went to skate and Matt. and I went to play Lan for two hours!!

Shucks, they want to go and see another movie after I'm gone to Japan... TWO LONG WEEKS... Man... I'm going to miss all of you all...

Oh.. well... See you all on the 22th after I come back....

Hey all... Captain's Ball on Sunday was like super fun!! Our team like won two out of three and guess what? I actually scored a few!! WOAH!!!That 2hrs and a half really rocked alot.... Wanna have it AGIAN SOON.....But can't... going to Japan....

Anyway, going to miss all of you all lots... And with the knowlegde that when I do come back to SIngapore, it will only be 2 WEEKS LEFT BEFORE SCHOOL RE-OPENS!!! (shocked face *gasping*)But anyway, this holiday has been really fun!! Though two months is a short holiday, but I know I rested enough and I'm really to go out there again and face the challenges ahead of me...but till then, will sit back relax and rest....

I really want to catch up with my old friends.. So if by chance that you read my blog, then please contact after the 21th of December.. Thank you for copperation...

I'll do a longer post tommorrow before my blog goes into hibernation for two weeks.... See ya laterz

Hello, I know its a while since I blogged but I'll try to write something longer than usual... Also, maybe talk a bit of my thinkings like I used too, if you all still remember...

This holiday has been a nice one, though its coming to end soon (I still have 16 graded maths questions plus a maths project but WTH..). I feel that I've rested quite a bit, also I spent more time for God, and more on my music (which needed some attention to it). As I'm been exposed to more genres of music (the music in which Jo and Matt. Ususally listen and I don't really..). I learnt a bit by listening to some of the songs by these bands (Most Greenday..) Ans they sure are fexible in their songs choices, they're songs vary from vocal-based (Boulevard of Broken Dreams) to Instrumental pieces (Wake me up when Semtempber ends).

They really express themselves through their music, depressing, sad or just putting a message across... Mmmm... I also took most of time to hear to gospel worship by hillsongs and they too have the same qualities of these bands.

But the difference is that you can feel their love for God, especially these songs in my blog "All for Love".. And another song called "Know you more"... Amazing... If you all want to hear these songs, you can ask me to send you for the files for they are truly good.....

Oh.. and in this holiday... I was really trying finding my past... Talking to more of my Primary school friends .. Finding long lost friends and starting our friendship anew as sec. friends.. But there was one I couldn't go back... but that was the past... maybe we'll never meet or maybe we will... Who knows? But until now...

I'm still finding myself... I feel a certain emptiness in me, lacking a certain something....

Maybe its my old friends, maybe its my past, maybe its my music, or maybe its that..

I haven't forgotten the feelings I had for you.....