It finally ended. The line of performances finally ended... Phew...

I had been like rushing to practice for performances for like HOW LONG already that I don't even have time to study fo EOY.....(Wait... Actually I'm only left with Literature... Oops) I mean I hold my instrument longer than I hold a pen!! (This is because I only read textbooks and use the computer to study, if you were wondering...) But anyways, its finally over...

Not too long ago, there was this someone whom I conserve with who made me wonder... Do I really know my friends? Or is it me who believes that I know them...? I have friends that I once believed that what they were finding in Life was great dreams that they have yet to achive, but now, its all wrong.. They were finding sinful pleasures in Life... Also, I have tried to understand one who is experiencing a complicated Life, but yet the friend denys all of what I say and that I do not understand him... One who goes in and out of depression... Yet does he really know the true meaning of depression...

A state of mind in which all is lost.. When all you think are your mistakes and what people laugh at you.. When you feel no one can help you and just the thought of facing reality causes you to tear and cry in a dark corner and stay there for that day... Where you find no peace in your dreams, where the thougts haunt you...

Do you think that I do not know such a state of mind, my friend? Or is it you who do not know the dark depths of pain and loneliness, where all is gone... Where I have been? I have been through so much, and there is so much you all do not know...