Hi there!! At least people are tagging on my tagboard (because before that, it was super DEAD. Anyway, would like to say A Big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to MATTHEW and ANDRE. Happy birthday to you all!! If I don't give you anything this week(which I hope too)I'll try to get it next week!!


Life has been quite good. I am one of the sixteen people asked to perform on National Day!! I'll be doing a duet with super pro. cellist Irivin Ling!! [Actually evey instrument has a solo, but my instrument and the cello is the loudest, thats why!! ;)] But then we got MR Super Attitude Problem, Ivan Cheng, he thinks he's the greatest conductor in the world, and every time someone screwed up, "Oh, its.....fault, let's start again" I mean WTH. But then the sir scolded him, "Do even know how to conduct? Let me show you.". And then we realised, its not our fault that we screwed up, its because we could not understand Ivan's conducting, because when the sir conduct, the peice was quite ok, actually quite good. (Without Ivan "showing off")


Ivan, if you did not have such a Big Attidute Problem and don't keep answering the Sir, "I don't care about this Co, I'm in SYCO", You would be a much better person.

Hey there... How are all of you? Today was quite ok at first, the teachers were nice and didn't give lots of homework, friends were very nice to me and I thought it was going to be a good day... But doesn't good days go bad?


At CCA today, The seniors had an attitude problem against me or something(even though they were not there). They like, demoted me!! I was like training so hard, and then this guy with an attitude problem comes and says, "I don't like you because you're not gay. You're demoted." WTH!!!(I mean the guy who told me was ok, but, its like the senoirs who demoted me appeared to me like this way to me, you know, imaginary...) Its ok that my life's hard work into my music is already not noticed, but they give me that "I don't care if you are good. I just don't like you" attitude. I mean Singaporeans are not racist, why should my seniors act as if they give all the good positions to the gays?!


Just forget it, Just forget it.... I work only for my music and for no one else who does not know how to appreciate it.

Ya! Can come online again!! Everything is back on track...My studies has went back on track... The hard work that I put into my music has been noticed, and I am one of the sixteen performers to perform for some event... And my character...Well, I have no idea...


I get said at when I be nice to them. They prefer me to talk back to them, but all I do is say sorry, is that wrong? I wonder... Is it bad to be good in this society? Why does it mean my Christians friends smokes, scolds vuglar words, or even insult others deeply until it hurts emotionally? Does it mean that they are truly Christians?How twisted has the meaning "good" be change by evil?


I will try to help change the definition of good to what it is and, just be a Christian I feel I should be as an example to them and maybe they'll change into a true servant of God. I know a true servant of God who is truly shown me that a Christians are really different than this world. Truly, he is one of many true Christians that are yet come and there is so much to do to bring them here where we are, in the light of God. And I trust you all will too.


Have a nice week!!

Doind lots of stuff these fews days so cannot really blog, but I give you all a nice song by Jimmy Eat World....(On the music player, the last song)

Hear you Me- Jimmy Eat World


There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go
I never said thank you for that
I thought I might get one more chance


What would you think of me now,
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
Never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance


May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in


So what would you think of me now
So lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that
Now I'll never have a chance


May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in


May angels lead you in
May angels lead you in
May angels lead you in
May angels lead you in


And if you were with me tonight
I'd sing to you just one more time
A song for a heart so big
God wouldn't let it live


May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in


May angels lead you in
Hear you me my friends
On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in


On sleepless roads, the sleepless go
May angels lead you in

Hi! Its been 4 days since I've blogged (WOW!! That is so long!!) and Life is as usual....Work, work and more work....... Lets just talk abt something today....


We are all in a world that is something that it seems to be when it is not. Evil may seem to have its roots deep into the morden society of the world, but in the inside, Light is actually hiding within all these darkness waiting for the right moment to re-appear to the earth and wipe out all evil to contain it all deep within the Light now then before when the darkness hid the light from the world. It is just like human hearts, what we see may be at first their bad side of their character where all evil may be shown to you on your first meeting with him/her, bad no one is bad in nature so always remember not to give up on hope and God for there is always people who will raise out their hands to you!!


Nigel sigining off!!

Why do I keep doing wrong? The anger, the insults and the grudges I have held on. Why, why do I keep I doing wrong?.... I thought about it and came up with this....


Lord, this my cry (by Me!!)


Why does evil find me,
and yet with this knowledge
do wrong.


Why is it that
I cannot do good
as much as I
do evil?


Lord, is this your plan for me?
Lord, am I destined to create evil?
Lord, am I truly who I am?....


Am I the darkness that
will plunge the world into pure darkness?
Will I bring chaos and
cause mass destruction amongst the people?


Lord, when would I achieve such
Great Faith like Daniel, such
Great Wisdom like Solomon, such
Great Leadership like Moses, and
being sinless like Jesus Christ.....


Lord, be with me as
I walk this great journey
trying hard to be just
like Jesus as he walked
this path as I am now.

Lord, create in me a clean heart
may I walk with a sense of
what is right, the truth and
what you want me to be.....


Maybe I could be one of the many
lights you have made amongst the people that
has glorified your name by being who you
want them to be, being a true servant
of you Lord....


This is my cry, Lord
Be with me as live
Create me a clean heart
Cast me not away, and
make me a true servant
for your use. Thank you,
The Lord of all good....


What is your cry?

Or maybe this would make it easier for you all............. 

Anyone see familiar people in here....... OH There's me and wow.........I was so fat....... Spot the others......( Picture from 2001) 

Anger is something we all face in life, but what angers you the most? The center of all this darkness in you waiting to be unleased by that switch......so what is it?


Well, what angers me the most is not how people treat me (thats fine) but it is what people do to my friends. When I see my friends in pain, sorrow, agony or any form of discomfort, I would pour out my heart to them and then unleashed my WRATH against them. I would talk to them in a angry tone and if that does not work I might actually feel like giving them what I really have. I just cannot stand People Who Make Your FRiends REAl....REAL IN ANY SORT OF PAIN, RIGHT!!..... I mean don't you just feel a sense of ANGER RUNNING THROUGH YOU WHEN YOU SEE A FRIEND OF YOURS BEING AFFECTED!!...........


(Breathing deep breaths in and out slowly)........ A bit of anger there, anyway thats what's makes the darkness flow out from me...... and if it was ever unleased, it would be quite hard to stop.......... Now you know why I was so angry about the rumors and stuff like that, because it is not only affecting me and if it was, I would be alright about it but it is affecting others, who are good firends to me and sisters in christ just like everyone else to me ( brothers/sisters in Christ)..... So, ya this is what I have been wanting to say........

2nd week of school....still trying to get used to it......hiaz...... anyway haven't really talked about a certain topic for quite a while (I think about 3 weeks if I'm not wrong....) so let us think and deeper into a certain topic..........


God has always been with us in a certain way or form, but what creation did he create that really represented his form throughout History.... Take a moment and think about it, and maybe you might disagree with what I may have to say next.......
To me, God is ust like the element-water which takes in three different forms. Water as it is is like the holy spirit and God's word that flows throughout the earth filling it with God's great nature and and power. There was a saying that the holy spirit lives in us as we are a temple for him, This is when the water makes sense. We cannot survive without it we cannot survive, is it not? That is why the saying "men live by God's word...".... Then the form Ice is none other then Jesus, who appear to us as a solid,a true being before us and when he touched all of our hearts by taking all of our sins, he evapourated into the sky and went back to the clouds with the Lord..........


What is then your idea of it?.......Take your time and think then you find an answer suitable for yourself...............

Death... have you ever thought it? Maybe all of us have at one time or another..... Are you afriad of it, of this stop when you are put it in a stand-still, are you....?
Death brings sorrow to the family and friends and a certain feeling of being empty without that certain person with you anymore, is it not......? What are you really afraid in death, when all stops or something esle.....


Yesterday was a day we were all there for Jo and his family. I could feel that certain feeling of lost in them, sorrow.... fear of losing family.... could you feel the great lost, could you feel it in the atmosphere and not feel just a bit sad? Death is something brings life altogether and form it up to make sense of what we are doing lives, and we still in this world cannot tell what is it like to well, die.... But what it leaves behind, emotions that affect that person loved ones......
Sorrow, feeling empty...... We all will meet this kind of situation someday and I just want to tell you, no matter what or how long it takes, what emotions that you are going through (I know it must be tough) we must all learn to let go, maybe dwell in the past for a while but still go on, ya? I am also sure that the one who went on that great journey would want to go on in this life, am I right?


I know many did not really talk to Jo but I know he is very gald and happy that you all came and that he still you all to lean on if he ever felt sad or felt weak that you all would be there to help and raise out our helping hand to him......


Well for this, you might listen to Because of you, Since you been gone, Breakaway, Behind these Hazel eyes and finally There you'll be. All these are various feelings in them that they might feel..... Well, Jo we are all here if you need us, k?